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PANJANG GILA HEHE

Mukadimah : "We cling to music, to poems, to quotes, to writing, to art because we desperately do not want to be alone. We want to know we aren’t going crazy and someone else out there knows exactly how you’re feeling. We want someone to explain the things we can’t.”

Yes this is exactly why I built Kat Kopi Pes :)

2) “There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t, at some point, think of you. Or, some kind of memory we once shared. It’s like I look at a certain thing, hear a certain song or even eat a certain food, and suddenly I am reminded of you, the times we shared, the conversations we had, and the best friend you used to be. I know I ruined it and I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I miss you so much yet you don’t seem to at all. Because I still hesitate and the sound of your voice, even hearing your name, but you don’t even blink at the sound of mine. Because I’m trying my hardest to let thing go back to normal yet you don’t even bother to put in the effort to make things work. I’m sorry because once again, I’m crying over you while you’re probably having the time of your life with her.”

3) “I’ve learned this past year. I’ve changed, I’ve grown. Maybe things do happen for a reason, maybe they don’t. but no matter what, they still happen. That’s what we need to remember. I learned to stop analyzing things, to just let them happen. And if I get hurt, or if something bad happens, then it happens. There’s nothing I can do to change that. I’ve learned to go with my gut, and that it’s okay to make mistakes because the ones that matter, won’t care. I’ve learned that love really is as great as they say it is. I’ve learned that your friends can save you from your worst enemy: yourself. And most importantly, I’ve learned that today is all we have.”

4) “Do you know the most surprising thing about heartache? It doesn’t actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart, or a head-on car wreck, it should. When someone you’ve promised to cherish forever says, “I never loved you,” it should kill you instantly. You shouldn’t have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn’t know.”


5) “I’m just so scared. Scared because I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I wish so much that I did, but I don’t, and it tears me to bits. I’m scared, so scared because I have never felt this way before. I don’t know what this feeling is, but it’s taking over me, and I just want so much to be back to normal. I want to let this go, because I know I’m hurting you, and her, and so many other people. I’m scared that you won’t be there for me, and you’ll walk away and leave me to paste my life back together like I had to such a short time ago. I’m scared to lose you, but I’m scared to keep you in my life knowing all well that I am in the wrong and am hurting innocent people in my selfish quest for happiness. I’m scared that you will never hold me again, that you’ll never tell me with so much faith that everything will be all right. I’m scared of losing you. I’m scared of losing myself.”

6) “It all happened so fast and I’m wishing it didn’t have to end this way. But it did, you left, and I’m just beginning to learn to live with the fact that you will no longer be there waiting on me, just as I will no longer be there worrying over you. You’re happy now. It’s about time I be that way too.”

7) “When we first met, I didn’t want to get involved with anyone. I didn’t have the time or the energy, and I wasn’t sure I was ready for it. But you were so good to me, and little by little, I found myself falling in love with you.”

8) You’ve really, really messed my head up. I didn’t expect us to last, we’re only young and I’m not naive, but it’s been 10 months now and I’m still not over you. At all. I’ve never felt like this about anyone before and I hate it. I don’t want to believe that I’m in love with you but I am, I know I am. I’ve tried so hard to get over you, but it seems impossible, you’re one of my closest friends and I’m terrified of losing you. I know you better than most people do. I know you’re no good for me but I can’t bring myself to let go. You tell me all the time how you always go for the wrong girls, the girls that hurt you, but YOU hurt ME. I wasn’t like the other girls and you let me go. I cry every night because of you and it makes me feel so pathetic, sometimes I seriously think I need help. It’s fucking stupid. I never knew I could feel this much, or hurt this much. I know we’re never getting back together, I wouldn’t even be able to trust you if we did, so why am I holding on? What I’m trying to say is; I love you so much that it’s killing me, and you have no idea.

9) “It’s getting so much easier to pretend that you don’t exist. With every day that passes, the easier it gets to look at you and pretend like you never were a big part of my life as you were. You came, you stayed for awhile and then you left, just like that. It’s all right now. I am no longer bitter. I simply wish you the best; I hope you can be happier than you were when I was in your life.”

Belum sampai fasa ni lagi.

10) “Why do I care so much about you, after all you’ve done to me? I mean, you’re nothing really special, just another stupid teenage idiot. But you were always my idiot, and that’s what counts. God, I used to believe in you. I really did. But I don’t know what to believe anymore. You blew it, idiot. I hope you’re happy. Just when I thought everything would be okay, you threw it all away. You changed before my eyes. It’s like these last months meant nothing. I’m not gonna lie, this hurts like hell. I’ve never hurt this much over another person. I want to be done with you. But I can’t say goodbye. This might seem backwards, but I don’t know what hurts more right now, the possibility that you never cared about me at all, or the possibility that you still do.”

11) “It’s not that I miss you. I just, for some reason, keep thinking you’re going to walk through that door and tell me that you miss me and you want me and can’t imagine your life without me. I keep thinking you need me and you’re randomly going to call me, IM me, or text me. I keep waiting for the moment you’re going to man up and tell me all this… then I realize why you haven’t done it yet… because none of it’s true. You’ve moved on now, and you’re happy. Without me.”

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12) “Isn’t it funny how you can think you’re completely over someone, but if you drive past his house, stumble upon a meaningful song you both shared, or even get a glance of him on the street… just in an instant, it can change all that. And you start to remember the pain. And that hollow space is feeling more and more like the Grand Canyon with every second that goes by. But you bury these feelings deep down, so deep that you’re sure no one will be able to tell. To the outside world, you smile and act like nothing is wrong or ever will be. Everything’s just perfect. For that split second that you’ve locked eyes, a tiny whisper, say “make this last forever, only and just moment forever and ever.” But after a second or so, you go along your own merry way, all the while home realizing how much you do miss him, how much you still love him… and it sticks with you for days, weeks, maybe months, until fate decides to hand you another one of those unexpected moments. And then you finally understand the worst feeling in the world is when the person you love the most is standing right next to you, yet you can never have them. Try as you may, you can’t make someone love you.”

13) “Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold onto something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out, and it doesn’t come back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain.”

14) “It’s upsetting to think that someone can, after so long, so many memories and so much love, just turn around and say, “Sorry, I don’t love you anymore.” After everything they have gone through, it hurts to think about how somebody can change their mind on such a thing as their love for another. I can’t even begin to understand the reasons behind this. I know things change and nothing lasts, but I just can’t seem to comprehend how can a feeling change, just like that, in a blink of an eye? And it scares me, so much.”

"Sorry I dont love you anymore"

15) "In that moment, I felt my heart break. And I thought, “I can’t live without you. I don’t want to live without you,” and then it slowly crept into my mind that no matter how bad I wanted or needed you, it wouldn’t matter. Somehow, and very painfully I was sure, my life would continue. With or without you."

With or without you - U2. Hehe

16) “You may not know it yet, maybe you’ll never even think about it, but I’m special. You’re going to meet a lot of girls throughout your life, and a lot of them will be special to you. But I’m telling you right now, you’ll never find another me.”

Kau boleh carik gepren lain tapi jangan carik Heroine lain ok :/

& banyak lagi. To be continued ... ngeh